Random thoughts. It is an apt description. I have so many thoughts running around, colliding, in my head. The roar at times is like a stirred up hornets’ nest. But I manage and bounce from thought to thought, coming back to various ones then they are gone into the whirlwind vortex of flashing thoughts.
Externally, I look almost catatonic for lack of any physical activity. Inwardly, a torrent rages.
I chase a thought and wonder why so many who say they are Christians reflect so little of the character and nature of Christ? I look back down the road of observing their lives and see that while they are broken spiritually and realize they need God in their lives, they cannot let go of a “meeting expectations” mentality. Others hold grudges from past hurts. Others hold hurts and hurt others. Some still will judge from their own shortfalls and ask why others cannot measure up while they themselves do not.
I hurt for them.
Why is it that Man as a specie is so divided? Greed? Avarice? Power over others? Judgment of others for the shortfalls in self? You hurt me, I hurt you right back?
People seem lost in a moment. The drug inducing the waking coma varies but to the same affect: brain haze to endure what seems unendurable, joy-joy endorphines kicking in to make it through until the next moment. TV, movies, chemistry in food, chemistry in beverage, chemistry in activity, chemistry in chemistry to dull or heighten the moment. Why? Is life so terrible or directionless?
Why do we isolate ourselves then wonder why nobody calls or stops by?
Life is so much more than getting by until death, activity until death, stupor until death.
Life is in the sharing, doing, accomplishing; in a genuine smile of contentment. Life here is a journey whose end here is meeting the God of Israel face to face.
I know, and acknowledge, that many have recognized other gods or deities. True, but only one has shut up all the others: the God of Israel. There is a longer and more unbelievable story as to how I have put that to test.
Maybe I will tell that story some day.
Suffice it to say, I have put God and the gods to test, and the God of Israel won everytime.
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Other random thoughts to follow.
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